This weekend is going to be so bittersweet!!
Tomorrow (Friday) is going to be the last day we will have women from our church serving us by caring for me and Josiah, and this weekend is my LAST weekend of bedrest! I have been so beyond blessed. I will miss having such godly women around everyday, but at the same time I am going to be so happy to be able to be back on my feet caring for Josiah and being able to do things that I have not been able to do for a while. Some of the things such as cleaning I have not been able to do since I was 7 weeks pregnant, and other things such as walking since 30 weeks.
I have been having a lot of contractions and pressure this week so I am hoping that it continues and when I am off of bedrest that Jude comes quickly. I really hope he is here by August 1st, but I know that my GOD has a birthday already set for my little guy and I will be content with whatever day that will be! I love being pregnant and feeling what God is knitting together move inside of me. Even though I do love being pregnant the complications I have endured this entire pregnancy has made this pregnancy really hard to enjoy, and to be honest I am just so tired that I am ready to hold this little boy in my arms and kiss his sweet face. I am tired physically and emotionally from the complications as well as from my body trying to go in to labor for so long.
I am so beyond grateful that I have made it this far!! I will be 36 weeks on Monday. Seems like just yesterday I was 7 weeks and was not sure if I would miscarry or not. I know that all the credit and glory goes to my big amazing GOD!!! <3 He truly did answer our prayers and the prayers of all who lifted my family up during this trial.
This trial was definitely challenging for me and my family, but nonetheless rewarding! I can say rewarding because it tested our faith, truly brought us closer together, and more importantly drew us closer to the Lord. It taught me patience, reliance on HIM, and it humbled me. Satan tried to attack in many different ways, shapes, and forms, but our Savior delivered us from satan's schemes every time. This is one verse that I absolutely love because it reminds me of how amazing the Lord is, how satan is ready pounce and devour, and how our God is BIGGER and more POWERFUL than the devil and has delivered me!!
1 Peter 5: 6-11
Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of GOD so that at the proper time He may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on Him, because he cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To Him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen.
As much as I can say never wanted to have a hard pregnancy, what I will say is it truly has been a blessing in disguise. I am extremely thankful for what the Lord has taught me during this time. Going through trials it is hard to remind yourself that God is with you and is good even in the midst of the storm, but it is so true. I saw God's goodness, grace, and mercy upon my family in numerous ways. For example, here I am almost 36 weeks and Jude is still in my womb growing!!! My church family stepped up and completely lifted our family up in prayer and served us above and beyond what we could have ever imagined, my husband was able to have the strength to endure having to work full time, care for Josiah full time when he's home, cook, clean, grocery shop, serve me, and the list goes on.
I am excited that this bittersweet chapter of our lives is coming to an end soon. I am so excited to meet our sweet boy!!! Thank you again to all who have been praying!! :) Please pray for a smooth and safe delivery and that Jude is healthy!!